If you are not already doing kundalini yoga, I suggest you start. Find a teacher in your area or start one of the many meditations offered on this site. Try it for 40 days and see what happens. May you find the beauty and grace of God within you. Sat Nam
Let go and surrender - sounds like a great idea. The question is - How is it possible to let go and surrender to the unknown? The reality is that the human psyche will not let go unless it has an experience of what it is surrendering to. A belief, a good idea, even the truth are not sufficient to convince our body to let go of control. We can nurture the possibility of letting go by getting in touch with the innate flow of energies within our body. We can begin by attuning to the cycle of our own breath. Let go, allow the flow of the breath in your body. Note where the breath and the energy stop and start. Do a kundalini yoga exercise for 1-2 minutes, for example, spinal flex. Then be with your breath in your body. Be with the experience of the breath slowing down and eventually coming back to a stable rhythm.Notice the relationship between the rhythm of your breath and the state of relaxation or stress in your body. When we are able to relax our body, we can experience and attune ourselves to deeper levels of the rhythm of our breath through our physical vessel. For 3 to 5 minutes, consciously slow your breath down to 4 or less complete cycles per minute. Then be with your breath as it breathes through your body. Be very attentive and note the difference between consciously controlling the breath and simply being with it as it breathes. This is the difference between control and letting go.Our breath is our primal connection with the cycles of our soul, nature and the universe. As we return to the natural rhythm of our breath and the pulse in our body, we awaken to deeper levels of connection with our own truth. This exercise (adding your own personal variations) can be used between the exercises of any Kundalini yoga set. Be sure to be especially attentive to letting go and surrendering at the end of the set and after any mantra or breathing meditation.The goals of this exercise are to (1) to release the need to control the breath(2) to surrender to the natural cycle of the breath (3) to experience that there is a natural rhythm within yourself that you can trust(4) to experience that you will not die if you release control of your breath(5) to monitor your resistance, to allow it, to feel how it feels in your body, and through acceptance feel your body let go and relax even a little bit(6) For one precious moment - enjoy letting go and relaxing in your own body.